i've been unhappy all the time...

you have been warned: NSFL. seriously. this isn't here for you. this is here for me. don't let your curiosity get the best of you.

this is one of my favorite movies ever. i can't say why exactly. it might speak volumes of my mental state, but there's something about this one that just makes me squirm.





(highlight and delete every time i ever loved you.) the lies are starting to bleed into one another.

i believe in barack obama.

it takes a lot to impress me. it takes even more to get me excited about something. but this guy does it for me. i really do trust in this guy. 4 years ago at the 2004 dnc he refered to himself as "that skinny kid with a weird name." i loved him that day and i've backed him ever since.

salvation can be yours for $19.86

i'm the total christian package. oh yeah, i'm all about jesus. you can tell because i have his porcelain likeness perched on my bookshelf.


it always amazes me how elitist people can be about stuff they're into. like, pretty much everything i love is ruined by people who were 'into it first'. or have to have something i have because they have no personality of their own, so they leach onto my shit. just because you have more of a product, doesn't mean you're more 'into it' than someone else. just because you go to church every week, doesn't make you a good person. just because you preach to people and believe you're right, doesn't mean that you are right. not everything is a contest.

if you're going to be a scumbag, own it. just admit you're a scumbag. if you won't be honest with me, at least be honest with yourself.

winnie > topanga

there's a million different ways to interpret this, depending on your perspective i guess. i remember watching this on tv when it aired the first time, and having so much hope for them. looking back now, i should have guessed how it would all end.

i can't wait to see what happens next.

80% of the time, i feel like this all the time.


i hate the blatant nationalism of the olympics. thank god it only comes around every 4 years.

throwin' it up!

if i have to suffer through this, so do you. i will never ever be able to get this song out of my head now, thanks kanye.

blues in the evening...

i suppose you could replace 'hospital' with 'hollywood' and it would be just as relevant. right?

this has been my little secret for a while now, but i'll share it with you, because this is just too good to miss out on. this can fix any bad stuff that might happen in your day.

if i could fix you, i would.

if something's on here, you can go ahead and assume it's one of my
favorite 'whatever's'.

close your eyes or listen to this song in the dark. this fits for my right now.

i'll pretty much eat anything if it comes out of a plastic bear.

say it with me in your best guy ripley voice, "delicious!"

i started this whole thing because no one believes that i like anything. i know i'm pretty abrasive and off-putting. most of the time i complain about most everything. so i don't doubt that people would make that assumption. don't feel bad, it amazes me too that i have the capacity to love things.

also, to you, i see right through you. and i don't care about the substandard, second-rate future i can see laid out at your feet. don't bother to fight this, i already know every decision you'll ever make. don't bite my style.

a/s/l?

to catch a predator was the greatest thing to ever happen to dateline nbc. i always catch myself feeling bad for the guy in this clip. he just seems so nice. and then i remember he's there to have sex with a 12 year old girl and then i just laugh and laugh. i swear, i could spend hours clicking my way through youtube's 'related videos' sidebar.
who cares if that one guy killed himself. come on nbc, bring back my favorite show.

ice cream soda pop, vanilla on the top...

this is one of my favorite scenes ever. i'm glad that i'm lucky enough to have someone that i consider to be the josh to my billy. everyday i feel like this. in a very 'i feel like i don't know who you are anymore' way. 'you're gonna have to prove to me you're still the same guy.' how does it feel to wake up one day and have everything you ever wanted, and not know what to do with it?

fresh to death.

nas has been one of my favorite rappers for a while now. and i've never been able to explain why exactly. here's why.

this is my favorite song so far this year. the new album is amazing.

9

shane acker directed this short film and tim burton is going to turn it into a full length feature this year. it's totally the craziest thing i've ever seen it's like a dark crystal/wall-e acid trip. get into it. it's amazing.

update! apparently, nobody gives a shit!

this is the funniest thing i've seen in a really long time. kinda old. i've been going on and on about this for a while now, but if only for archival purposes, i'll put it here.

they're coming for you barbara...

more joe havasy.

so yes, i realize that there are several things in this world that i refer to as "pretty much the greatest thing ever". and zombies. well, they're another one of those things. i'm actually pretty nerdy about it in a 'technically' kind of way. like, 'technically' the 1990 'night of the living' is savini directed, but using almost the exact same screenplay frrom 1968 and with romero producing, i manage to count it as my all time favorite romero flick of all time. something about comatose barbara in '68 is a real turn-off. '90's barbara was one tuff bitch. and also, candyman kicks ass. yeah yeah, 'technically' so fuck you too. i love any and all horror movies, yes. but the underline political statements of the zombie movie must be noted and appreciated.

i'm absolutely convinced of the impending zombie apocalypse, so i think it's important we all plan our escape routes now. in a very real 'what would you do' way. it would be cute if this was just some nerdy quirky thing i joke about, but i'm actually serious.

buy the zombie survival guide. it's my bible. a small glimpse into the way my mind works.
1. organize before they rise!
2. they feel no fear, why should you?
3. use your head: cut off theirs.
4. blades don't need reloading.
5. ideal protection = tight clothes, short hair.
6. get up the staircaise, then destroy it.
7. get out of the car, get onto a bike.
8. keep moving, keep low, keep quiet, keep alert.
9. no place is safe, only safer.
10. the zombie may be gone, but the threat lives on.

Joe Havasy does some amazing work. as far as independent artists go, he's one of my favorites. totally twisted, but somehow adorable. i fell in love with these a while back, and thought you had to see it to believe it. go check out his stuff on etsy.

austin, you're awesome.

austin is a lovely place to visit. i look back on my times there with fond memories. but seriously, i don't know that i would want to move there. there is only one single solitary reason i would ever want to stay full time.

hey cupcake.

there are few things in this world that i love more than this cupcake van. very few things. and honest to god, their red velvet are to die for. to kill for actually. i hope they have cupcakes in heaven, cause i'm gonna murder your ass if you get the last red velvet after i've been waiting in line for half an hour.

just a little sugary treat that seems to turn down the volume on everything that's terrible.

go ninja, go ninja, go!

the greatest super villian the world has ever known? when i was 4 years old i sure as hell thought so.



the greatest video game in the history of gaming? when i was 4 years old i sure as hell thought so.
so here's the deal, when i was a kid, i was absolutely convinced that i was going to grow up and fight crime with the turtles. i would wear my michelangelo halloween costume all the time. i swear to god, if it were up to me, i would have had pizza every night for dinner. but my mom was concerned for my health. i had every book. every video. and every playset. i used to get pissed off when my grandma would call it "playing". i was "training".

"do turtles eat cinnimon toast? i made some." haha i love you grandma.

over the years, i've grown wiser and refinded my tastes. but seriously, not by much.

my childhood, uncut and in it's purest form.

ok, so i have to tell you, the nike optimus prime air trainers are the sweetest kicks i've ever seen. it's really not a matter of want anymore, i straight up need these shoes. i need them the way i need most things i become obsessed with. like right now,i'm really into soft serve ice cream, chinese lo mein noodles with white rice, caramel lattes, and these shoes.

au naturale...

i'm pretty much obsessed with japan and everything that comes out of there.

japanese company mindscape has this "peddy" collection. chia furniture. i need this in my life.



i really am trying to make it out of this. i'm trying really hard to smile and sleep and talk like everything's ok. the only way i can be me again is if i stop seeing your sad eyes every time i look in the mirror.

come find me in the future...

i've always felt a little off axis. a little off center. move everything two inches to the left. i've been sophie my whole life. the most simplistic breakdown of how my mind works.

so yeah, i was hating on christian bale for his lame batman/tourettes guy impersonation in dark knight. but honestly, bale as howl, is absolutely perfect.

this is seriously my favorite movie of all time.




i'm still waiting for the boy who's going to sweep me up, and carry me over the rooftops.

gentlemen you cant fight in here, this is the war room!

tonight at the fountain theatre in las cruces at 9:45 there will be a showing of dr. strangelove. it's the last almost midnight movie at the fountain, so to see you all would be amazing.

right in the middle of a big nose bleed. bad omen for the day i guess.

hey cupcake, we will be together again soon. i promise.




i want to start painting again.

living art...

these fish pods hang flush against the wall, and are just generally awesome. they hold about a gallon of water, so they can accomodate any teeny tiny fish. this is way cooler than any poster you could hang up.

i feel nice. like sugar and spice...

Young @ Heart is a chorus line from North Hampton. it's members average 80+ years old. they sing everything from james brown to the ramones. they're like the coolest old people ever.

“Can you hold on for a second? I’m on my hamburger phone. It’s just like really awkward to talk on.”


Fox Searchlight sent these out to critics at advanced screenings.